you were with me all along
guiding my every step
you are all that i am
and i'll never forget
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Sunday, November 22, 2009, 11:45 PM
ode to a friend
I woke up knowing that this would be yet another ordinary day.. but I was wrong. As I went downstairs, I heard a familiar voice saying.. "sa wakas gcng kna din! hanggang anng oras mo ba balak matulog?!" To my surprise, I saw him.. right by the couch.. sitting.. with his stupid smile all over his face. I stood there. frozen. just staring at him.. then i finally managed to say something. "sh*t ka! bat ka nand2????!". He laughed then said "good morning din sayo! tara gala tayo!" I was already thinking of killing him because of showing up unannounced.. but then i thought.. *oh c'mon.. admit it. you also wanted to be with this guy* and then so i said yes. I bathe and got dressed and then we took off. I was watching him as he drove around. It's been a long time since the last time I saw him, his hair grew longer and he's more pale than I remember, maybe because he doesn't go out much lately. "ang gwapo ng view noh?" he blurted out. I felt the blood rushing up my face, *I got caught*. "hoy! kapal ha! ndi kaya ikaw tntgnan ko".. He laughed and said.. "oo na lang.. hahaha. hmm san mo gusto pumunta?". "kahit saan, basta kasama ka.." (yeah I know, cheezy! :D ). He said, "at san mo nmn nkuha yang cheezy line na yan ha?" and then we both laughed. :) He finally decided to stay at ATC. As we entered, I saw the New Moon poster. "gusto mo manuod?" i asked. "nahh.. sayang oras hmm pero kung gusto mo, ok lang."he replied. He was right, we didn't have much time. "hindi, ok lang, mnnuod din nmn kmi ni lore" i answered. We continued to walk, talking, catching up, having fun. laughing and buying foods from random stores. First we went to subway, then we bought ice cream at dippin dots, he ate fries at mcdo, i bought sweets from candy corner, we ate lunch at burger king, he tried haagen dazs' pistachio ice cream (and was very satisfied), we ate crepe and we drank frappe at cbtls. Definitely, food was something we enjoyed together. We were all over the place.. like naive children who had seen food for the very first time. Man i wish i had brought my camera with me. Crap! I even forgot my phone. Too bad, i was not able to take pictures. We finally settled down at a bench. The sun was already setting.. it was so beautiful.. and so was he.It was the first time that i watched the sunset with him.. and i know that this would also be the last. And so I stared at him, trying to remember every inch, every angle, every detail of his calm face. I realized that it was not only his hair or his skin that changed.. IT WAS EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM. He was more matured than ever, more sincere, more composed, more gentle than I could even remember. This matthew was different. "ayan ka na naman, tinutunaw mo na naman ako!" he mused. I just smiled.. trying to hide embarrassment from being caught again. Then i thought.. it's time. "tara na, uwi na tayo..malalate ka". He froze for a while, "sure ka?" he asked. I nodded.It was quiet on our way home. TOO QUIET. I felt the desperate need to break the silence. I had to, so I could remain sane. I noticed that he was driving slower than the usual. I joked "hoy iho, alam kong ayaw mo pa ako iuwi, pero tignan mo nmn speedometer mo.. ndi mn lng umaabot ng 20." He laughed! (really hard..) :D "sira ka tlga!" he said. Finally, we're in front of my house again. It's past 6,, still too early, i thought. But this was better. It's now or never. We were still inside the car. We were silent for a while. Then he said, "kunin mo nga ung camera jan sa glove compartment.. picture tayo!" I was blank. and then I screamed. "whaaaaaaaaat?! mei camera ka all this time?. Hindi mo man lng cnabi? loko2 k tlga!.. ngaun mo lng naicpan mg-picture." He was laughing.. entertained by my reaction i guess. "kunin mo na lng.." he said with a grin on his face. As I opened the compartment, I saw no camera inside. Only a small blue box with a card on top of it. "Happy Birthday Bez! haha.. alam ko na mejo late na pero hahabol pa nmn diba?" he said. I couldn't say anything. I could not find the right words to say. I opened it. I saw a shiny silver bracelet. It was pretty. It had dolphins around it, ornaments which have heart shaped something.. (I couldn't describe it) but it was really pretty. I noticed that it has a small bell which makes a sound everytime you move it. I finally said "Ano ba to bez.. para nmn akong nwawalang pusa nito, mei bell pa". "EXACTLY!" he said "pra madali kang mhanap, madalas ka kcng nwawala! (which was true)" he laughed. "loko loko ka tlga!" I replied. I opened the card last and it says.. "promise me that you'll never forget." Those words gave me away.I lost. I swore that I wouldn't cry, at least not in front of him. But I was too weak. I tried holding back my tears, but i failed. "Okay lang umiyak." he patted my head "don't be afraid to show what you truly feel." he continued. And then I got it. I knew why I thought earlier ago that he was different. He was not the childish boy anymore that I once knew, He has already turned into a young man.A more honest and expressive man that I am very proud of. :) "Cge na, bababa na ako.. thank you ha! ingat ka!" i told him. "uhm okei.. I Love You Bez!" he said sincerely. We both know that It was not the intimate-I-love-you kind.. it was more like of an i-love-you-my-bestest-friend! one. "Me too!" i said sheepishly. He knew me too well, he knows that I couldn't say the "L" word. That I get uncomfortable when it comes to mushy stuff. He just laughed and said "tlga ikaw bez, ndi pa din ngbbgo!" I smiled widely. I hugged him for the very last time, he hugged back and I got out."See you later!" was all he said. I knew he wasn't good at saying goodbyes.. and so was I. "okay,. ingat!" i replied. I watched him disappear in the horizon. I watched him leave without even saying goodbye because deep inside, I was still hoping that this wouldn't be the last.. that someday.. I'll see this wonderful person again. =') |
thedeceptionist
Vanity isn't a sin, a little narcissm wouldn't hurt. |
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